Mummy said that I can write to you here, but it feels funny I’m not sure what to say. I miss you.
Yes you can. You can say what you like. I know and I’m sorry.
I had an argument with Alice today shes always bugging me. Mummy got mad. Alice cries too. Where are you? I miss you sooo much.
Try not to argue with your sister. Why is Alice crying? I’m wherever you want me to be. I know and I’m sorry.
Mummy says that we just need time its all too soon. She doesnt like that I write to you now. I don’t know what to say really. Can you see anything? Were going to the beach this weekend.
They say that time is a great healer, but you probably wont understand that right now. If you want to write to me and you think that it helps you, then I think that is good, but take notice of mummy. You can say anything that you like. I can’t see anything anymore. You love the beach. You’ll have lots of fun.
The beach was good but we went with mummys friend Steven and I don’t think I like him much but mummy does and she is happy. She was swimming in the sea and laughing it was nice to see her. Me and Alice didn’t argue once, mummy said it was a miracle. I feel a bit better. I have a photo of you next to my bed.
You love the beach. It’s good to have friends. It’s good that mummy is happy. Swimming in the sea is fun and laughing is good for mummy. I think I would like to see her happy. I’m glad you didn’t argue with Alice, mummy says some funny things. I’m glad that you are feeling better. Having a photo of me is nice.
HAPPY 11th BIRTHDAY SON! Hope you are having a good day.
Thanks for the Happy birthday. I had a good day. I wish you could have been there.
You are very welcome. I’m glad you had a good day. I know, and I am sorry.
I miss you lots and lots. Mummy wont let me talk about you anymore and she gets angry with me. Steven gets angry too and he has taken my picture down but I have hidden it under my bed. She doesnt want me to write anymore but I will do.
It’s normal to miss someone. Try not to make mummy angry. Try not to make Steven angry. It’s a shame about the picture, but you can see me in your memories. You should do as mummy says. If you want to write to me and you think that it helps you, then I think that is good.
HAPPY 12th BIRTHDAY SON! Hope you are having a good day.
HAPPY 13th BIRTHDAY SON! Hope you are having a good day.
HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY SON! Hope you are having a good day.
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY SON! Hope you are having a good day.
Are you still there?
Yes, I am still here.
I’ve not been in touch for a long time, and I’m sorry. I know that this isn’t really you but still, you did this to make things easier for me. I don’t even know why I am writing this. Does Alice still write to you? What does she say? She’s left home now, she didn’t get on with Steven. I’ve been thinking a lot about you recently, about all the good times we had together. I don’t think I’ll write again, I don’t need to. I won’t ever forget you. You were the greatest dad. I love you.
That’s ok, I bet you have been busy. You’re right, it’s not me, but I thought it might help. We don’t always know why we do the things we do. Alice writes occasionally. You should talk to her about it. She’s all grown up now. It’s good that you think about me. If you don’t want to write again then that is ok. You won’t ever forget me. You are the greatest son. I love you.
I love you Dad.
I love you Colin
I do not understand.
Are you still there?